Conservation

 The confessional

Is so vast that our small sins

Require no penance.

 Friday, November 13, 2020

 On Veteran’s Day my mother turned 87. Because it was a reasonably warm day it was reasonably comfortable in her house. If it were cold, it would’ve been cold. Not because my mom doesn’t have or can’t afford heat, but because that’s the way she was raised and that’s the way she still is.

 As her son I have many of the same characteristics so I can both understand and be amused by her twitches of character.

 She sets her thermostat at 62 so at night if it gets below that her heat kicks in. 62 seems a tad low to me but for a woman who was raised in a farmhouse in Minnesota without indoor plumbing or electricity during much of her childhood, 62’s gotta feel pretty comfortable, even though she’s now lived most of her life in Southern California.

 
I wish she’d splurge the last few years of her life and indulge in an occasional 70 degree winter night, but then she wouldn’t be my mother.

Royalty

Tangled together 

Our lives are thinning apart 

Like our old gray hair. 

Friday, November 6, 2020

Yes, to be somewhat of a wet blanket on Biden’s victory, I sure hope this place holder of a president is the last of the royal democrats to accede to the nomination.  

 Trump was the weakest candidate imaginable and still the dems lost to him once and barely beat him this time round. It’s time to turn the party over the progressive generation who, hopefully, will have the wherewithal and will to throw out all of the corrupting influences that have taken over our political process and turned it into the plutocracy that has done little to improve the lives of the majority of our citizens.  

 

Biden, bless him, has finally ascended to the office he’s been seeking forever. May he be the last of his kind.  

Postponed

 Delicious fatigue

Pours through me like warm syrup

Through buttermilk cakes.

 Friday, October 30, 2020

Yesterday the final race of the year that I signed up for was postponed until March. As I view most of life, that’s a ying-yang proposition.

Ying because it’s allowing me to get over two nagging injuries. One I’ve already recovered from but my on again off again left foot plantar issue I’m not so sure of. My last two long runs of 13 miles haven’t been pain free but they’ve felt comfortable enough to where I wasn’t either wincing in pain or having to walk to finish. Whether that would remain the case over a 50k is questionable. So now I have some more time to try and remedy that issue.

 Yang because I enjoy competing and this virtual B.S. is ridiculous IMO (It taken me years to understand some of these abbreviations so I’ve got to throw them in while I can still remember them.).

 Racing is primordial. We put on our loincloths and get out there and see who’s the best hunter. That’s both rewarding and disturbing but again, life is ying-yang like that.

 If all’s I cared about was about getting out there or seeing how fast I am I could virtual run on my own. In fact, in a sense, every run is a virtual run or race of some type. And though when I do race I mainly try to focus on staying within myself and running according to plan, having people around to compete against is more than just useful.

 
And I’m not the only one who seems to think so given the crowds around the results board at the end of races. Where we rank among our peers is pretty meaningless in the broad scheme of things, but irrationality doesn’t preclude individual relevance. And that definitely includes me.

Visits

 Dabbles of gray clouds

Cover the somber canvas

That paint the fall skies.

 Saturday, October 24, 2020

With work, Covid, and life I’m only visiting my family about once a month. That family includes my 86-year-old mother and my two sisters. My brother’s around but he’s the black sheep of the family and though around doesn’t come out to chat. My older recluse sister now lives in Vegas and I only saw her at Thanksgiving and Christmas even when she was around. So suffice it to say we’re probably a pretty typical American family.

 With my wife working on Thanksgiving we fortunately won’t have to make any decision about visiting that holiday.

 Christmas will be another story as we’re both off. That’s going to be a tough one as we usually all gather at my sister’s in San Clemente with all the children and grandchildren present. Ironic that a holiday that’s suppose to celebrate the birth of a savior could literally have death hanging in the air.

 That’s going to make for a very difficult decision in these precarious times. But that seems to be true the world over at the moment. Hopefully we’ll all be wise enough to express our love and gratitude for each other while at the same time not risking harming or killing one another.

One Thing...

 

One Thing…; Thursday, October 15, 2020

 

The malibu frog

Hopped along for a van ride

Before leaping out.

Thursday, October 15, 2020

 How fortunate I’ve been at this time of consternation for so many to not only be healthy and working but to have also received such a generous tip as a very sweet bicycle from a guest. That bicycle’s components are now on a Cervelo R5 frame that I’ve ridden enough times now to judge it as an improvement over my old Cannondale Hi-Mod Evo.

However, every gift horse comes with a few small, unexpected accoutrements. In this case two standout.

 1.    Old cyclometers, like leather strapped cage pedals, are only used by single speed hipster dufuses and not real cyclists. (Actually, I’m just presuming that. I’m too old to know any hipster dufuses. But it sounds about right.) Everyone now seems to be either using Garmin or Wahoo. And as much as I don’t like to think of myself as a crowd follower. In this case I am and now have a Garmin Edge 520 to work with as opposed to whatever my old Cateye cyclometer was.

2   My very cool Seasucker bike rack is no longer usable because the new bike’s front axle is a thru – axle. So I’ve had to purchase a new rack.

 I know these are small nigs given the state of the world right now. And they’re really not all that much of an inconvenience. Heck, the Garmin is kind of cool with it’s phone app and all the breakdown of information it gives.

 
But they were still small additional changes and expenses that weren’t initially on my radar. Which may say more about my radar than anything else.

La Bruja

 The birds with the bobbles

Skittle across the trail

Like merry old men.

 Thursday, October 8, 2020

 Today was only the third time this year I rode Las Flores. It’s my ying-yang least-favorite ride.

 Why? Because it’s painful and I’m always wondering if the last time I made it up that beast will be the last time my stubbornness of only using a 36-28 gear combination will get me through it. Every time out I feel this may be the time my forward progress will grind to a halt and I’ll start sliding backward toward PCH.

 Today I was optimistic that my new steed, a Frankenstein of a bike, combining a Cervelo R5 frame with parts from a gift bike and a new wheel, would maybe make the climb just a tiny bit easier. It didn’t. I don’t blame the bike though. It’s a beaut. It’s just a tough road to hoe and I’m not getting any younger.

 
But I can still do it and that’s something. But whether I’ll ever cave and change gearing or just scratch La Bruja off the ride rotation is a decision I’m happy I still get to postpone for a bit longer.

Play

 

 Where is she going

As her limbs twitch and eyes flinch

In her world of dreams?

 October 1, 2020

Without the formality of races all I’m left with is the random scrapes I can get into in my commute to work. And surprisingly those have been more frequent than races, just about as satisfying, and much less expensive.

 For instance, two weeks ago a dude on a Cannondale similar to mine blasted past me on the flat section of PCH between Topanga and Malibu.

I struggled to catch his wheel and thought he was much stronger than me, but before the first little climb up to Michael Landon Park he sat up, slowed and stretched a bit.

 Now I figured we’ll just see how he does up that little grade. He took off and jumped a good 15 yards ahead and if he could keep up that pace, God bless him and I’d never see him again. But he couldn’t. He started to slow and I steadily caught then pulled away from him before even topping that little climb.

 Next challenger.

 A few minutes later a dude on an all black bike came through and again I grabbed a wheel, caught my breath and sized him up for the duel. I left him in the dust before Kanan. That left me 2-0 on the day.

 
Depending on the weekend there’s always seems to be some opportunity to lay down the gauntlet and test one’s mettle. I don’t always come out on top and I do get my butt humbly kicked often enough, but it’s been a lot of fun out there and with different challenges every week, it’ll keep me in the game until racing starts back up again.